Agh! I haven't posted in like a week I think! I feel so bad! Well not much has happened except I ran into a friend of mine and that stirred up some old feelings. I told a friend of mine and they told that guy! Agh! And he didn't even like me! I sulked after I found out that, but a mere 24 hours I'm ok. I miss he did like me but it's happened plenty of times before. First time: 4th grade, last day of school. I had my friends go and tell this guy Logan that I liked him; but of course he didn't like me back. I don't think your first crush really ever goes away. And now that I'm back at school I see my friends exboyfriend, who I am lusting after. So badly...it's terrible. The guy in my algebra 2 class still hasn't gotten the hint that I don't like him. Today he totally pissed me off by poking my sides at lunch....still not getting the hint. You think I would've jumped at the chance to have a boyfriend because he so obviously likes me; but I don't just want a boyfriend. I want a boyfriend who I actually have romantic feelings for. But none of they guy's I've liked have ever liked me back. I hate it. I considered just having a casual relationship (i.e. purely physical satisfaction). But I decided I would wait until I got my god-damned braces off, just incase I feel any different. Allow, it gives me a date to stick to so I don't do anything stupid/drastic.
Bye, hopefully I'll update tomorrow.