Day 29

Yay! Drove to the hotel, it's uber nice here. It's kind of nice spending time with my family, even though we get on each others nerves. I can't wait till tomorrow when we go to Long Wood Gardens, we get in special because my family bought a season pass. I mean, like tomorrow visitors can only get in for a few hours because it's the holiday's and they don't want an overload of people. I have to share a bed with my mom, I'm afraid of kicking her in my sleep or falling off the bed because I'm used to sleeping against a wall. And I'm not used to sharing a bed. I have about 2 feet of floor between the bed and the wall. It's very quaint. I think I'll upload some pictures of here; well if we use my computer for the uploads. Let me explain: my brother dropped the home Dell laptop and now it's on the fritz. I hope they do.
Oh BTW, does anyone now how to make a text message signature on the Samsung Trender 2011? I like to use signatures and I still haven't figured out how.
Byeee

Day 28

Yay! I'm blogging again! Well I have to say one thing: I hate hang nails. I have some on my right hand. A total pain because I'm right handed and that makes it harder to type or text. It just feels weird having band aids on my fingers. My bro gave me a suckish Christmas present so I'm going to pick out a few things for about $40 in total. Now that I think about it, I feel kinda bad because on a normal Christmas he would get me something small, but he made a good amount of money doing the operetta, also he gave my mom $100 cash; so I guess it's ok to feel jipped. Well I should go to bed now because we're packing and getting up early tomorrow for our weekend trip. Byeee

Day 27

OMFG I haven't blogged in almost a week! I feel so bad! Well not much has happened. On Christmas I got lotions and body wash and body spray from my mom and dad from Bath and Body Works. I got a gift card from my brother and reed scent diffusers from my uncle. He always gives the best gifts; last year her got me special footie socks with foot lotion: amazing gift. I'm thinking of writing him a 'Thank-You' card just to let him know how awesome it was. Check out my poll. Oh also I'm going to be on vaca at a fancy garden in Philly but I'll still blog. The hotel has free wifi so I'm going to bring my laptop defnitly. We have also been watchign a lot of scary movies lately: Paranormal Activity, Paranormal Activity 2, Insidious, and we were going to watch The Sixth Sense tonight but it was too late.
Bye blog tomorrow.

Day 26

My mom can suck balls. She gets mad at me because I tell her what I've wanted to tell her all these years. I don't know what to do anymore. I feel like I should live with my dad because he doesn't yell at me but at the same time I feel like I should make amends with my mom. She wants me to forget the past but I'm not sure how easy that's going to be.
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We worked it out, I cried. I also started fantasizing about going to Philly and running into David Boreanaz, he and my mom fall in love and happily ever after. Well just meeting him would make my life. Heehee

Day 25

It's Thursday night and I'm uber bored. Didn't do much today besides go to school, sit in a waiting room while my mom got a prescription for her inhaler and watched Bones. I'm scared that when Bones gives birth to her child, they'll end the show because she will want to spend all her time with the child. I think people would watch the show just to see Seeley and Temperance together in action.

Day 24

Okay, I'd like to just say that none of what I was saying is true. I was just venting. You gotta figure life pans out pretty well if we were even put on Earth. So take life my the balls and just run with it. I made my own personal bucket list, I have some pretty fun stuff on it. Like skydiving, ride a mechanical bull, bungee jump, fly in a plane(because I haven't yet) and I also want to backing-packing. I want to go to Italy and France and England. So like I said, run with it.
So don't take any of what I said yesterday to heart because it's just sad angry thoughts. Besides, I deleted it.
Byeee be happy!  #bucketlist

Day 23-Again

People want other people to be positive but that's just not possible because from a young age, we are focused on the bad we do. Such as: when we get an answer to a question wrong, that is focused on as bad. We take tests and you immediately look for how many you get wrong. It's to see what we did wrong, but not focus on it so much that that's all we look at. When we hit someone, we are punished; for good reason but when we act good, that's ignored. People around us focus on our flaws, not celebrating the good things we do. So then how are we expected to look at our own positives when all we see are negatives?
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Adding again, well I had a pretty boring day. Online school, lunch, walked Winston. That's it.

Day 23

Ahhh, living here is nice; but it feels like before, strained and have to be on your toes. I think I should talk to my mom about that soon so I don't lose my mind. Also, I'm writing a book; I don't know if I should try and get it published now or when I'm older and look over it. It's a romance novel but I have no idea what the title should be. Oh well, bye I'm bored.

Day 22

The evening of Sunday. Yay! I guess I'm just more happy here, that's great though. Man screw this, I'm tired and  had an awesome day: I woke up, ate, sat around, ate lunch while watching Bones, then put up and decorated my fake Christmas tree.
Enjoy, better posts tomorrow and so forth.

Day 21

Yay! I slept in my own real bed last night! And what I mean by that is that I'm living with my mom again! I missed her so much, it makes me want to cry because it's just hitting me how much I really missed her and everything else. I don't think it's fully hit me that I'm living with them again but in time it will. I am blogging at 8am on a Saturday weird I know but I'm up. My massage yesterday was ah-mazing. I was in like a trance of calmness and quiet for about 2 hours afterwards. Me and my dad went to Chick-fil-A for lunch and it was really busy and loud so I kind of got stressed about that but I was fine mostly. It didn't help that 'Aunt Flow' was getting ready to visit me, so I was really testy yesterday; it didn't help that I had to do all the wrapping of my half-brothers Christmas presents. It's crazy because my dad just wanted to send a check to my step-mom for my half-brother's gifts. Ya know, like they go out with his money and get gifts; but I said "What? No way, you can't do that. You need to get his actual presents. It'll mean more than just money." It will really mean more to my half-brother because my dad went and visited him in San Diego and he was so excited to be seeing him; so it will mean a lot to get real gifts from him. We went shopping and got him a huge bubble blower, a toy sword, the Guinness Book of World Records, matchbox cars, the Spongebob version of 'Guess Who?', and I think one for thing but I just can't remember. Most of the gifts, I thought of getting; the only gift my dad really thought of was the book. He really thought he would love it. I'm afraid of what I'm getting for Christmas; but I'm just really happy to be living with my mom again. Just don't tell my dad that.

Day 20

Sorry I haven't been posting, I have a lot going on; obviously I'm talking about the fact that I'm moving back to my moms. I'm actually really excited about this. Well I've been doing laundry all day which is very boring but whatever. I have to wake up early tomorrow and get ready for my massage that will be at 11:30 at Massage Envy. Super excited about this because my back/shoulder/neck muscles are really screwed up. Oh well, this should be nice for me. I have a big bag of clothes along with a box of most of my shirts; then I have another box just filled with my clothing hangers and another box of shoes. Although I haven't put all of my shoes in it, a lot of my shoes are actually either under my bed or under my dresser. Oh yeah, today I had my last session with my therapist.
Well byeee I'll tell you how amazing my massage is.

Day 19

Wow, whenever I go to write a post for this blog, I forget how many days I've posted. Anyways, I'm writing stories and I'm having some serious writers block and I need ideas so check it out!
http://www.quizazz.com/story.php/1216272/Justin-my-roommate-and-best-friend/
Well today (Monday) was pretty boring, I didn't sleep until about noon and them I was asleep until my dad got home at about 7pm; but while I was awake, I was watching reruns of Psych one of my favorite shows ever. The only other shows I love that much are Monk and maybe Desperate Housewives. And Modern Family...and Whitney....and Chelsea Lately. I like a lot of more mature shows, well mature in the sense that it was meant for adults. Oh well, I miss Monk; ya wanna know why? Because they ended the show about 2 years ago I think, it was so awesome! They ended it really well too, that was the best show!
Whatever, after that I had my therapy session and I told her that I was leaning toward staying with my mom. After that, me and my dad went and had dinner at Panera Bread, THE BEST FOOD THERE! I love them, I had a turkey sandwich with spicy mayo and onions. I know, onions ewww! But I kind of love them now, it's a new found love of mine. Which will prevent me from finding real love because of onion breath. Haha

Day 18

I always do this, I stay up late and then post about the day that just happened a few hours before. Well let's just pretend that it's still Sunday. So today-Sunday- I woke up at about 2pm in the afternoon; I have no idea what happened, I was gonna wake up at 1pm so I would have time to shower and get ready for my massage. Mind you that I had to get in the shower that is gross and in the house with roaches; well I got over my fear and did. I showered as fast as I could and even had an outfit layed out that I was going to wear; but when I got out of the shower my dad told me that Massage Envy called and told him that my masseuse had called in sick. So now I have a massage scheduled for Friday at 11:30 in the morning. So excited! I would be even more excited if people would read and comment on my stories! It's been almost 4 days since I posted saying that I wouldn't be updating a popular story of mine unless I got 5 comments on each story. I only need 1 more comment on each, so that's nice. Gah! Friday I'm moving back in with my mom, that means 5 days of laundry and clothing bagging.
Bye! Check out my stories!
 http://www.quizazz.com/25601820/created

Day 17

Today is now Sunday but I'm going to write about Saturday. So Saturday, I got up really early- at 7:00 am- and I found a website that told me what time the Total Lunar Eclipse would happen. It turns out that the Lunar Eclipse was going to take place at 8 am. So I sat around and got dressed to go outside, thinking that I would see the Eclipse for myself. Well I woke my dad up 10 minutes before the Eclipse, but apparently it was too sunny to see it here. And also I would have had to been on the West Coast to see it; great. So I went back to the website and it turns out they would streaming the whole thing live onto the website. So I got settled back into my computer chair and sat and watched most of it. I have this thing on my computer where I can 'snip'pictures of my screen. So that's what I did; I 'snipped' a lot of pictures of the Lunar Eclipse. I have them as my background but it wasn't that exciting. I wish I could've seen it for myself. Well after that, I took a nap and then me and my dad drove to see my brothers chorus concert thing. We were sitting up in the balcony with my mom,where it was really warm; I was sweating the whole time and my dad was fanning himself with my concert program. During intermission me and my mom were talking and she got sweater fuzz on my jacket; it was so funny! My dad seemed awkward around my mom because they're divorced and they hate eachother. Oh well. bye!
Happy Holidays!

Day 16

Today I post at 8:21 pm, shocking because usually it's either really late or in the wee hours of the morning. I missed my moms calls and I didn't get to see her today because I stayed up so late that I slept all day.
I just came back from dinner at Chick-Fil-A and I had old Disney movie songs stuck running through my head; the songs include:
-Hakuna Matata, The Lion King
-Ev'rybody Wants to Be a Cat, The Aristocats
-Thomas O'Malley, The Aristocats
-Scales and Arpeggios, The Aristocats

I love these songs, they're so cute and catchy! I especially love "Hakuna Matata" and "Ev'rybody Wants to Be a Cat". I can't wait till I'm older and I can buy all the old Disney movies so I can watch them on the weekends. Well tomorrow I'm going to see my lil brothers chorus concert, I'm excited even though a few years ago I almost fell asleep at his concert.

Byeee check out my stories!

Day 15

Yay! Friday! I love Fridays, except this Friday I have to was ALL my clothes because I'm moving to my moms so I don't want to bring roaches into the house incase roaches laid eggs or whatever. So yesterday........Oh yeah! I woke up, laid in bed, then basically jumped into my clothes and went to my session. We worked on nothing but I was assigned work and started it; so now today I have alot of work to do because he wants to check on my work. So today will be filled with laundry, homework, blogging, and story writing. Well that is if people read my stories and comment on them:
http://www.quizazz.com/25601820/created
Go read BOTH stories and comment on them because I know that people atleast like ONE of them, and I am currently blackmailing my readers into reading my other story! I'm such a nerdy monster....kinda haha. To be honest, I don't really care how many people read this, I just like having it and seeing a slow increase in the views.

Day 14

Today is officially Thursday even thought I'm talking about Wednesday. Okay, well I was supposed to get my braces off (or at least that's what I thought) but it turns out I have 3 more months of treatment. When they told me that, I started crying right there; now usually I'm a great patient, I don't make any complaints about what they're doing in my mouth but that just broke me. I am so tired of wearing these shit contraptions. I first started wearing metal in my mouth in 4th grade: I had a small metal wire in the roof of my mouth, then I had a palette expander (that hurt like a mofo), then they took that out and put in a 'herps appliance' to fix my over bite; then soon after I had my front teeth in braces, later they took of my herps appliance to find out I needed 4 teeth removed. I didn't complain, I only wanted to know if there was any other options; apparently no, so I had my teeth removed and took that like a trooper. Finally, they put in all my braces. The worst of it was that they put my braces on my BIRTHDAY, I moaned about that but didn't through a tantrum. So I think I'm allowed some solace of getting my braces off. It's funny because my mom got braces and one time I was in getting worked on at the same time and she was moaning and making a lot of noise; it was kind of embarrassing because I take it silently. I hope to god I get these damn things off soon. I realized that I have aggressive thoughts but the logic and common sense part of my brain makes me not act on them; after they adjusted my braces part of me wanted to blow up the orthodontics office or kick someones face in. I didn't though because then the wouldn't be able to take off my braces. I always wanted to kill myself but didn't want  to die wearing braces; also funerals are very expensive and no one can afford another funeral after both my fathers parents died. Sometimes logic comes out the strongest.

Day 13

Agh, I forgot to say this, but Monday I got the second shot of 3 shots for the HPV vaccine. I think the only reason my dad made me get it is because he has no idea what I do and what it is really is; but I've realized that the shot makes my shoulder muscles tighten up (like botox) so my left shoulder won't crack and feel better as easily. It really sucks but another thing happened, not Monday today; my dads loan didn't go through (meaning he didn't get the loan) so that means I'm moving back in with my mom and my dad's going to move into my uncles basement. I'm actually really excited to be moving back, but I think my dad wishes I wasn't so open and enthusiastic. He wants me to miss him, I will but I've been missing my mom a lot more. His new commute is going to be 1 hr to maybe 3 hours because my uncles house isn't in a great place road location-wise. So that's really going to suck for him; but what I'M most worried about is my friends and school. I mean, what classes am I going to take going back to TJ High School? Gah! And my friends??? What about them? I mean I really screwed up my friendship with one of my girlfriends and then I got into a huge bitch fight with another but we worked it: it was mainly my fault because I was upset and overwhelmed by all what was going on so I created issues. But whatever, I just hope I have friends to go back to soon. And I'm moving on the 17th of this month, so I have a lot today; which includes the following: wash ALL my clothes and bed things, bag up ALL my clothes and bed things, and box up all my personal crap. Then on the 16th (a Friday) my mom's going to pick me and as much stuff as she can and take us back home. Yeah I said BACK HOME because that will always be 'home' to me. It's where I spent a good 7 years of my life, maybe even more because I might stay there. I don't want my dad to get depressed though, but my mom would say something like: you shouldn't worry about your dad, he can take care of himself. But in reality, I don't think he does a good job of it. I mean he's like 240 lbs at 6ft tall, that's kind of fat; don't get me wrong I love him, but being fat to me is gross. I understand that like maybe 5% of fat people have a genetic thing but most other people are just fat. Women sometimes just have wide hips or large bones, but men.....ugh. Men have no excuse, they're supposed to be larger bone-wise. I just....I would kill myself if I ever got fat; which is why I'm watching my weight right now. No I'm not dieting, I'm just thinking about my weight and trying not to eat too many chips.
Oh well night.

Day 12

Sorry I haven't been posting lately. Well heres the big news: I'm gonna go back to live with my mom because my dad couldn't get a loan for rent money. So he's gonna go stay at my uncles house in the basement. To be honest I'm excited because I miss her sometimes, but my dads worried that me and her will fight a lot. Oh well, I'll just have to show him. Well, today I woke up with like 20 texts from Twitter, 4 missed calls, and 3 voicemails. Ugh, mostly my teacher because he forgot we were supposed to meet at 2:30 instead of 2:00. Oh well, I'm doing better with my therapy I think.
Bye

Day 11

It doesn't feel like it's been 11 days since I started my blog, it feels like so much longer. My dad sent my relatives an email asking if any of them would be willing to take me in until the house sells but so far, nothing. He said he would stay somewhere else, I can't remember what he said about that but I just remember he said he would stay some where else. I found 2 places that could work for me and my dad to move into, cheaper, but we would still have to get extra jobs just to survive. My dad also brought up that option that he could apply for a loan so we could rent a place again until the house sells. It sucks because everything is riding on that house selling but because the market is so bad, it doesn't look too great for us.

Throw your thoughts in the hat, any ideas, thanks